Of words and memories

Maybe I still am sometimes.

But you know how you sometimes come up with an idea and think that it's good? I had an idea for a story and sent it to a small publisher when I was still a student in the university. They liked it enough to publish it. It was a surprise for me since I didn't really think about the plot deeply.

I honestly don't know how to feel about that novel. Sometimes I am embarrassed because I can think of those things which might not be as sensible as people would expect.

But here we are, the publisher is telling me that there might be a new batch to be reprinted. They said that the novel got popular among university students when some bloggers posted about it. I don't want to look at the reviews... It is sometimes scary to read when people think badly of your work. It's from so long ago so that makes it even harder for me to process my feelings.

The curiosity is strong but I am also in the middle of writing so I probably shouldn't give in to the urge to read online reviews.

More sales is good, right?

[OOC: JZX doesn't post his novels on his personal blog since he wants to remain private. This is the said book. It's posted on the group blog since JZX doesn't want people to know that one of his pen names is Chasing Deadlines.]

Please just make an email conversation instead of a meeting so early in the morning where most of the participants end up just listening to the suggestions. There's not even any room for actual discussion. The suggestions are practically announcements.

If it is something that will end up as a one-sided announcement, why not just send a memo? We need to reply with confirmation that we read it anyway. And you will still send this as a document later on. The minutes of the meeting is practically blank since anyone else who tries to suggest something gets shot down.

I should probably draft an proposed amendment to the new protocol and email it to everyone involved so there's a clearer understanding of what else needs to be included. Many other factors affecting sales agent performance need to be brought to light.

In other news, at least someone sent me a message and is wanting a date.

Yes. I will go on a date. I guess I can let that be the thing that will get me through this week. I can power through!

Hey, if you're reading this, help me out here? I'm going to the opening night of Paradise Manor but I might be coming from a meeting so I'd like to wear something that I could pass off as business-y enough but the moment I'm out of there should be okay for the club. I haven't been out clubbing for a while so I'm pumped up for it but I don't quite know if what I have here as choices are fine.

I have these shirts in black and white. They're the only ones I could pass off as business by day and club by night. I feel like a turtleneck would be too hot in a club. What do you think? Help? ⊂(⊙д⊙)つ

There are times when I wish that ideas can write themselves. The images pop in my head too quickly for me to even type them out and it scares me to lose the precious moments for my next novella. It's a never ending struggle. I love writing but if only I could be quick enough to capture each scene, each dialogue that my mind conjures.

Yesterday was easier because I saw a picture of a cityscape, a romantic view.

It makes me wonder if all the romance I'm going to have in my life is in my stories or if I'll eventually find one. If I could just be comfortable with people the way my characters are in speaking in the books I write. Orz